I feel like I have been dazed and confused for the last few months... like I just can't focus on anything or make any real decisions. I'm just lost right now. I'm sure it has a lot to do with where my life is, and the decisions that are looming in my future. I have some choices to make, and it sure isn't easy. These are choices that are hard, very painful, and significantly life changing. I often go back and forth on what the right decision is. I pray about it, seek godly advice, and pray about it some more. But still, my heart doesn't have peace with any of the options.
I leave for a trip to Chicago in about 1 1/2 weeks. Honestly, this is the only thing that I have been really excited about in a very long time. I can't wait to leave, and to get to Chicago. I think this time away will be really good for me. It will be a chance for me to enjoy some new scenary, while taking some time to figure out where I go from here. Who knows... maybe I'll just stay there... ;-) Nah, probably not. It's too far away from the people I love most.
But maybe... just maybe... I'll come back with a better direction for my life. And if not, well then I will just keep praying and see where God leads me from there.